The year 2012 was an amazing year filled with lots of
ups and a few downs. It was the year my life changed for the better and turned
me into an adult. The reason why I haven’t been posting anything was due to all
the changes. But I’m back now to share my thoughts, feelings and my life.
Now I’m going to talk about why 2012 was an amazing year
for me. It was the year I got married to the man of my dreams. We tied the knot
on March 23 and it was one of the happiest days of my life. I never thought the
day would ever come where someone would actually love me enough to want to
spend the rest of his life with me. I’m lucky to have found my soul mate and my
best friend. I could not have asked for a better man. He’s perfect for me in
everyway.
Our wedding was a small ceremony. Since we got married
in Adelaide, not many of my friends or family members attended due to the
timing and distance. I only had my mother and cousin come down. My husband had
his friends attend the ceremony. We thought of coming back to Malaysia and
having a dinner reception for our friends and families but I guess Allah had
something else planned for the both of us.
On the morning of July 14, we found out that we’re four
weeks pregnant! It was completely unexpected and the best news we both got
after a long time. We were both blown away. We were trying to conceive during
the first month of our marriage but when nothing happened we kind of left the
idea in god’s hands and went on with life. It took three months for us to get
pregnant.
The first person we told was my mother who couldn’t
believe what she was hearing. She was so happy that she started screaming on
the phone. After that we took some time to tell everyone else, as we wanted to
be sure that nothing would go wrong within the next two months. When we did
decide to break the news to everyone, they were all excited for us, which was
very comforting.
The thought of me becoming a mother has never made me
happier. I have wanted to have a baby since forever. I was just looking for the
right man to have it with and thank god I found him.
After a few weeks of finding out, my husband and I
decided to come back to Malaysia because we were both having difficulties
getting a job. The job market in Adelaide was bad and I’m sure the employment
rate is still low over there. The fact that we were going to have a baby was
also a big factor in why we decided to make our way back to Malaysia. I was
mostly home alone and didn’t have much support. Going back to Malaysia seemed
to make more and more sense as we thought about it. That way I won’t have to be
alone throughout my pregnancy and will have my friends and family around for
emotional support. Also, my husband was getting tired of his part time job and
we both knew he could do better in Malaysia if given a chance.
We left Adelaide in August and are still here. We had a
hard time at first as we had to move in with my mother due to lack of finance.
We spent all our savings on flight tickets and moving our things back. It was
hard not having a job and not being able to afford our own place. But things
have gotten better since. My husband finally got a job after trying for months
and I’m now 31 weeks pregnant with less than nine weeks to go! Things seem to
be working out for us, Alhamdulillah. It’s been slow but definitely improving
as time goes by. If everything goes as planned we’ll be able to move out to our
own home sometime after the baby is born. For the time being, we are going to
concentrate on the baby.
We’re both extremely psyched for the arrival of the
baby. As daunting as it seems, becoming a mother has changed me. All I think
about these days is the baby and what I can do to make our baby as comfortable
as possible both in my belly and when he’s born. I hope my husband and I will
be able to give our little one everything he needs. I also hope we’ll be
awesome parents to our little bundle of joy. Inshallah.
