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It’s been awhile since I last wrote anything. I was uninspired and totally distracted with “life.”

“Life” as we all know it, is full of many wonderful and not so wonderful events. For the past couple of months I went through a long and scary ride. A lot happened.

My relationship with my ex was put to rest. We decided to part due to our differences and I don’t have to tell you what that does to someone. I was obviously heart-broken and felt completely hopeless. It took a lot of self-dialogue and self-realization to begin accepting all that was and all that is now. I felt a sudden sense of peace within myself and went on living my life without a care in the world for men! Haha…

I also found out I had some medical conditions that needed immediate attention! :(

While my job took a completely different turn when I was transferred from Streets which is a section in the paper I wrote for, to Metro Red (A supposedly new publication by NSTP in collaboration with Air Asia).

For the past two months or more, I have been bored shitless at work. I have had nothing to do, no assignments to go for, no articles or stories to write. And I’m supposed to be a journalist! It has been so frustrating because I have not been able to write, about anything!

I also learnt that when you work in a big publication, people would want or try to step on your toes. And that, beauty and brains can be reasons for you to lose your place in the company and get chucked aside so you don’t get in the way of anyone who really cannot handle seeing a pretty smart thing trying to make her name. You’d think looks and brains would get your far but I’m living proof that it doesn’t always, especially if your boss happens to be someone who cares less for your existence.

During that boring period in my life, something totally unexpected happened. I wasn’t even looking for it neither was I interested in it. But little cupid actually struck me with his arrow and I had no choice but to surrender. I fell in love! Alhamdulillah! :)

I met someone who I had known for a while but never kept in touch with, someone who wasn’t even in the same country as I am. He came down for holidays and added me on Facebook. That was when and how our love bloomed into what it is now.

This man, to me, is no ordinary man. He is someone who managed to get not only my attention but captured my heart and turn me into a total mushy pot! We connected on every possible level there is. He totally got me, understood me and most importantly, accepted me for all that I am the way I learnt to accept myself. He made me want to take a risk and ride with him. I fell really hard. I fell in love with the most amazing man I’ve ever met! :)

Ever since then, only good things have taken place in my life. It’s as if he was the missing piece I needed to complete my “puzzle.” He has not only inspired me but has also managed to somehow help me be more of myself.

Not only that, things at work also started looking up when I was given the option to go back to my respective desk or continue with Metro Red as there have been some delay in its launch. I decided to take this opportunity to quit doing absolutely nothing and start doing something I probably would have never done. Work for the Crime Desk! I asked for a transfer and apparently it has been approved. All I need is for it to be official so I can start writing again! I’m a little nervous as I’ll be doing something completely out of my element. Crime! Murder! Rape! Blood! Hmmm… Lets see how I do. I’m hoping to start next month. So I’m crossing both my fingers and toes.

My ex and I are now friends and he has helped me through a lot. God bless you for everything you’ve done for me. I’m grateful to have you in my life. Thank you! :)

Alhamdulillah! My health is improving. It cost me a fortune but it’s totally worth it cause I’m totally worth it!

Now I’m really looking forward to living and experiencing my “brand new” life. I call it brand new because that’s how I feel, “brand new!” And I can’t wait to see what’s next for little old me. It’s definitely going to be a ride but one that’s going to be totally worth experiencing with many surprises in store. Insyallah!

:)