Eye-Opener

Has anyone ever wondered why we never really get what we truly want or desire?

I used to be one of those people who would pray and ask for all that I wanted and desired. I think I must have made Him irritated with all my requests because most of them went unfulfilled.

At some point in my life, I actually started believing that maybe Allah just didn’t care about me due to all the wrongs I have done in my life. Maybe this was His way of punishing me for my “sins.” I almost stopped believing in Him as well as in myself.

But then to my surprise I discovered a book that I knew from the moment I heard its title, would change my life forever. A friend recommended it and I’m glad that he did. The title of the book is Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch. A brilliantly written book with loads of basic questions answered in the simplest of ways.

Not to get too much into detail about the book as I would highly recommend it to anyone who’s eager to learn and improve themselves, the author basically says that: “We are responsible for the events that takes place in our lives,” “It is our thoughts, words and actions that determines what takes place in our lives.”

The gist of the book is this:

1. God has created us in the goodness and likeness of Himself.

2. God is the creator.

3. We are three beings in one. You can call these three aspects of being anything you want: Father, Son and Holy Ghost; mind, body, and spirit; superconscious, conscious, subconscious.

4. Creation is a process that proceeds from these three parts of our bodies. Put another way, we create at three levels. The tools of creation are: thought, word and deed.

5. All creation begins with thought. All creation then moves to word. All creation is fulfilled in deed.

6. That which we think of, but thereafter never speak of, creates at one level. That which we think of and speak of creates at another level. That which we think, speak, and do becomes made manifest in our realities.

7. To think, speak, and do something which we do not truly believe is impossible. Therefore the process of creation must include belief, or knowing. This is absolute faith. This is beyond hoping. This is knowing of certainty.

8. This place of knowing is a place of intense and incredible gratitude. It is a thankfulness in advance. And that, perhaps, is the biggest key to creation: to be grateful before, and for, the creation. Such taking for granted is not only condoned, but encouraged. It is the sure sign of mastery. All Masters know in advance that deed has been done.

9. Celebrate and enjoy all that you create, have created. To reject any part of it is to reject a part of you. Whatever it is that is now presenting itself as part of our creation, own it, claim it, bless it, be thankful for it. Seek not to condemn it, for to condemn it is to condemn yourself.

10. If there is some aspect of creation you find you do not enjoy, bless it and simply change it. Choose again. Call forth a new reality. Think a new thought. Say a new word. Do a new thing. Do this magnificently and the rest of the world will follow you. Ask it to. Call for it to. Say, “I am Life and the Way, follow me.”

Once we can all monitor our thoughts, the things we say and our actions, we will be in better control of our lives. We would be able to achieve anything and everything we set out hearts and minds to.

Now that I am more aware of my own destructive thoughts (thoughts that only proved to make me feel worse than I was already feeling), I am able to change them immediately before it gets sent out to the universe and before the universe starts putting them into motion.

We create our own destinies! All we have to do is to monitor our thoughts, words and actions and everything will fall into place. We’ll start seeing the changes in our lives. The more positives you think, say and do, the more positive things will take place in your life. While the more negative thoughts you have, words you use and deeds you do, the more negative events would take place, stopping you from knowing who You Really Are and who You Want To Be.

“When you catch yourself thinking negatives thoughts – think again! If you think you are in a pickle, and no good can come of this, think again. If you think the world is a bad place, filled with negative events, think again. If you think your life is falling apart, and it looks as if you’ll never get it back together again, think again.” - Neale Donald Walsch.

Remember, life is a creation, not a discovery!

Return

It’s been awhile since I last wrote anything. I was uninspired and totally distracted with “life.”

“Life” as we all know it, is full of many wonderful and not so wonderful events. For the past couple of months I went through a long and scary ride. A lot happened.

My relationship with my ex was put to rest. We decided to part due to our differences and I don’t have to tell you what that does to someone. I was obviously heart-broken and felt completely hopeless. It took a lot of self-dialogue and self-realization to begin accepting all that was and all that is now. I felt a sudden sense of peace within myself and went on living my life without a care in the world for men! Haha…

I also found out I had some medical conditions that needed immediate attention! :(

While my job took a completely different turn when I was transferred from Streets which is a section in the paper I wrote for, to Metro Red (A supposedly new publication by NSTP in collaboration with Air Asia).

For the past two months or more, I have been bored shitless at work. I have had nothing to do, no assignments to go for, no articles or stories to write. And I’m supposed to be a journalist! It has been so frustrating because I have not been able to write, about anything!

I also learnt that when you work in a big publication, people would want or try to step on your toes. And that, beauty and brains can be reasons for you to lose your place in the company and get chucked aside so you don’t get in the way of anyone who really cannot handle seeing a pretty smart thing trying to make her name. You’d think looks and brains would get your far but I’m living proof that it doesn’t always, especially if your boss happens to be someone who cares less for your existence.

During that boring period in my life, something totally unexpected happened. I wasn’t even looking for it neither was I interested in it. But little cupid actually struck me with his arrow and I had no choice but to surrender. I fell in love! Alhamdulillah! :)

I met someone who I had known for a while but never kept in touch with, someone who wasn’t even in the same country as I am. He came down for holidays and added me on Facebook. That was when and how our love bloomed into what it is now.

This man, to me, is no ordinary man. He is someone who managed to get not only my attention but captured my heart and turn me into a total mushy pot! We connected on every possible level there is. He totally got me, understood me and most importantly, accepted me for all that I am the way I learnt to accept myself. He made me want to take a risk and ride with him. I fell really hard. I fell in love with the most amazing man I’ve ever met! :)

Ever since then, only good things have taken place in my life. It’s as if he was the missing piece I needed to complete my “puzzle.” He has not only inspired me but has also managed to somehow help me be more of myself.

Not only that, things at work also started looking up when I was given the option to go back to my respective desk or continue with Metro Red as there have been some delay in its launch. I decided to take this opportunity to quit doing absolutely nothing and start doing something I probably would have never done. Work for the Crime Desk! I asked for a transfer and apparently it has been approved. All I need is for it to be official so I can start writing again! I’m a little nervous as I’ll be doing something completely out of my element. Crime! Murder! Rape! Blood! Hmmm… Lets see how I do. I’m hoping to start next month. So I’m crossing both my fingers and toes.

My ex and I are now friends and he has helped me through a lot. God bless you for everything you’ve done for me. I’m grateful to have you in my life. Thank you! :)

Alhamdulillah! My health is improving. It cost me a fortune but it’s totally worth it cause I’m totally worth it!

Now I’m really looking forward to living and experiencing my “brand new” life. I call it brand new because that’s how I feel, “brand new!” And I can’t wait to see what’s next for little old me. It’s definitely going to be a ride but one that’s going to be totally worth experiencing with many surprises in store. Insyallah!

:)